...you always tell me the truth, sometimes not on that way how I think I would like, but always and I like it...in the work is very hard I handle it, but it is hard and in new moon day or before it is always an attack...so it was an attack before a day of new moon and we got a profesional meeting as a gift for a new moon...
...I will survive but it was a friday, and on Friday I go out from work 5 minutes earlier because like this I have a silence freedoom and I do not want to go out together with coleguines who do not like me and it's ok we do not choose each other...
...so I got out and I survive and I need something special, because I pray a lot to survive and GOD help's me with strong hands and I was happy abouth it and I need something...
...so You choose metod with me, that you tell's me everithing whan you see that I'm hard and open to get it...and I think it's is a good metod for me...but I think that my metod with you was a succesfull because I openly said you everithing abouth me and never wait with that...because I work for your and your's and you need to know everything wich with me happend...You are the king and you open me the door of secret land, you give me a signature of beeing secret, you give me a writer work sooooooooooooo You need to know evrything whan it happen's if sometimes I think that it's no time for that...
...so I fly out from a work happily that I'm survive...and I need something special...I go to see for sister the time of evning train and than I go to glasses shop to ask how much are bipolar glass that I can wear all time...I do not want to buy just to ask it...
...and I go to buy a little mick tick to my wardrob in work to fix one desk to take there my bag...so I go and for a million time I cross in front of secret cake shop what is interesting for me I don't no whay for me...it is dark and silences and no people in it and I never ever see it before you...so I stop and look it tham a cakes...and I tell you that one day I will be eat here secret cake to know are your's realli excellent and you said OK...so I got in and I ask a white cake and Daddy's favorite...and thay where sooooooooooo GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD...yes your's are EXVELLENT that is whay my friend's husbant wan't only your's he like's specialities...and your's are really EXCELLENT SPECIALISITES...but theres were sooooo goooooood...
...and I got in ask for to cake's and than I realized, that maybe I do not have a money for it...and apolagize and the kelner:)))...so the young HE worker;))) from the secret nation, openly and coldly as it is evryday thing say's me don't woory you can eat if you do not have now money...and I feel at home at once...I like secret feeling...I do not look at him so much, I do not see his eyes...and he do not know to cach me as you for first my buying...but I feel at home and it was gorgeous to feel it...to feel YOU on my secret home...
...I sit eat and wach the sreet as at you, the chair's are so little not comfortable...but it was good to be on a place wich is similar than my home:)))..I eat and thank's it before that drink my calcium to not lose a breath...
whan I sit...comes in friend's of the worker owner and thay do not have a braveness as you to spoke secret language...thay were shocked that somebody eat's there and whan I got out thay sit as it is normal, but on air it feel's that that is not normal, and thay don't know that I know:)))...so I turn around thay see my back and I tell :
SO I COME HERE TO MAKE A TEST...and the cakes are soooooo gooooooooooood...and get out...
I feel my best loved friend in all of it...and it was a day whan I again make a big step to BELEIVE ON YOU...first step was whan You come to my house...and we get in and you don't come and whan I look back see you how you fight with yourself and you do not have a power to ask me can you come in with your shoes...than I realize, that you relly never ever had a lover before...and you really do not lie me...
...and now was the second step that you are really brave to fight, because whan I get in your cake shop you new that comes a moment, and you did not wan't to push it out...but you were deeply look at my eyes and openly says see you again and this boy is deppressed and using something drog or he is deeply in alcohol...so you really not deeply in alcohol because if you will be you can't be so open and so clear and lovely black black eyes...I beleive you, but I would like you to fight with alcohol...dont ask me way just please fight...
...and I ask you us your friend, to give me an OK to get here sometimes...it is so good to feel secretland and thay have 4 kind of herba tee I can drink tee and feel you...because you were working and learning to be a writer far away from here and sometimes I like to feel secretland where you take me...it wan't to be a lot of time in a year, but sometimes I need it really...please thank you...
ps. and I see that you do not lost your identity it is very important to became a good writer from you...this worker boy do not know what is He, and He got loose yourself I'm said abouth it...He start to lose His secret I and he start to become without a taste...I like your secret beeing that is the best thing on the world, takecare abouth it please...and I have 7x today to...I don't mind...but now I like to feel and see that I can stop...not forever just a period...going to eat:)))
