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...my lifetime work for SECRET KING...he is dangerous;)))...I do not wan't to give him this 3 year's m_ _ _ y, but I willlllllllll just this number's will be much poor whan I don't start to get back to OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ZERO..

..the thing is that near him is goog to live...if it is the hardest way of the life...i don't maind..hard to get out with him for routines becouse as I see He never ever have tham...and he do not understand still that thay are a very chep and very good kind to save our selves...I pray and I hope that one thay He will understand it..

...He do not look's good, but I hope that I can help around him a lot and He will be came back and became healthy...he like's to loose waith but on this kind,that is really not good way for health...

...soooooooo I GOT on WORK...and he fight out to give him some money us I get my salary...but he have to learn that we GOT much poor than we was on 2012:)))takecare

...in my life first time I see my grand mother with her 92 year's fall in love as tiinager...a week before I realize that my friend old lady 84 year's fall in love to a priest...they are patetic and romantic love story's and still now and still now I did not belive that it can be true in this age...as 92 and 82...my dear friend old lady holly cake maker is in LOVE that is why she cry for help as tiinager:)))...for helping to make her holy cake...I help her, but I can satisfied my life in the GOOL of her priest LOVE...

...I help HER, but I can't give my love for her LOVE...because I give it to GOD'S hand and HE'S WANT is to satisfied my life for a KING of SECRET LAND...and that is my way I'm sure my inner have a PEACE on this way if it is SLOW LONG AND HARD...this is my way...

...on the way of HOLY CAKE make-ing.., I'm just tired histeric and their is a war in my inner man...I do not have my peace...so I WOULD like to work and give my life for a life of SECRET KING...not to priest O...who did not know who I'm and didnot help me to cach tiger's in my brain life...priest O is a holy way I new...but I wan't be HOLY...I would like to be on FOREVER LIFE wich God gives all of use and the question is just our free want...take care

...Y miss me a lot, the best thing in the world to make cronic's for the secret KING..the heart was hurt me tomorow whan I was so tired ti write you just a sentence that I do not have energy to make cronic today...so way was it happended..

...it's happened because I got a call a week before, from my old frined who want's my help on holy cake making...because she is ill and can not finished it...and she need help in removeing for her own house because she never ever live there, she always find places wich are near to the church...and my inner man aid you have to help her...I help her in my free time all Friday Saturday and than soooooooooooo tired come home and work 8 hours to finished that work wich I started in you cake shop...

...my old friend have a doughter so she is Ok but she is in LOVE to the PRIEST and can not know to said no freee witjout money holly cakes for him because she is ill she can not do that...so she see that I' will continue to do it... and started to pray on catolic way for me...I start to loose braith and became ill because it is so much work for nothing...

...to a Priest who did not know whan you became ill and can not do it...and who can make by himself holy cakes if he need it and dont want to buy...and I fight out  with her that I can't and don't wan't to do it...now I help her but I do not wan't to became a holy...

...after that I fight out with work wich I start at you cake...it was relly hard beacuse all time thay make that I'm not enough good for tham...but it's goes and the II Cake WAR is finished and I'm again in my place to write you...and that is my HOME:)))take care

...I realized that an old lady with 84 year's are in love to a priest...52..and whan't to do everything to became holy for him...

Iám still working have to finis for tomorow you know what I start in you cake shop...I help my old friend to make holly cakes and to went back to her home because she is ill...it was hard but Iám glad that I help her she need me really now...

soooooooo take care I will write you

...whan I have a wrong slepp at home...I were help to an old lady today and yesterday but I buy a ticket and on Sunday with train at 5:45 flying home:)))...

...it was a good laection for me...my work became better because I will go here in Subotica much concentrated and much more time in kindergarden the boss want that and I fight out good norma for me to work countinuosly but to not kill myself...

...tomorow after work I go to kindergarden were I sometimes go in the afternoon and I got a good new things for me and after that I go to esperanto...see this I get in the esperanto satyr teacher need just to minutes to send me for nerv shock so I see that we did not work at all and I tell sorry I do not have energy for this...I have very much shockes in my workplace I have to take tham and handle tham but on my free time...I will choose thing wich make me relax...

...so a lesson with esperant teacher is not that...the writing to hiperactive from my mother's birtplace is nerving me so I can pray for him sometimes but I can not take with me day buy day that...and the old lady...she got organized my all time buy backward...I can pray for her but I can't do to her job what se need's to make a holy cake for priest...today I help her and tell her...to I can't because I need to concentrate for work...

...so after that lot shock's after work, what is in freetime and I choose what will I do on my free time...and after shock that I'm all day on my feet's and I wait esperanto learning and I got shock as I walk in I need a relax and goo to the cake shop to drink herba tea...

...and it was memory of you...secret memory of you...just the cake shoper somtimes use to talk as you talk holy language and he got me free to relax and think I was there 20 minutes and whan I go out tell him that I'm from the other town and there is cake shop were are like to be very much and in winter period that cake shop not working and in this town I don't have a place and I like here this relly good and peacefull and I told him your name...

...this cake shoper is not brave as you are, and whant to clear it why I'm here...and whan I tell him that I like here...because it is so much similar than in my town in my best loved cake shop he was not bravely smileing just us you...

...and I remember You so near to me...and make 7x with Y and was so relaxed 7x w Y seven x with YOU:DDDDDand it's make me so relaxed and I realized, that have to remark my free time for relaxed...because sometimes I have attacked buy that old satyr's but I don't afraid anymoore you are with me there and helping there a lot...I would like to tell a story how...

...I new thwt you new to be jellous and you don't like whan I make freinshepp's on secretland without you...and I don't like to do thing what you don't like...but sometimes there are horrible days and I spontanly step away and thing's happen...in this cake sop never ever can be as at your's but tomorow after attack that never ever can have esperanto as a hobby I need a relax because it shock's me I like that language...not loved as secret language but I like it soooooooooooooooooo...and yesterdayI realized that I heve to loose it to live...because my esperanto teachet do not have heart ...take care tomorow I writw on mecko

...I write to Kreumal:)))...I'm so sorry because I eat a lot and I'm not good in writing whan I eat a lot...but today I have the last boxing with boss and have to give her winner champion but I got everything what I need, tempo and peace to work and live...there were not be anymore from morning to evning kindergarden wotkshop's...it will be a hard normal evryday work but not just work us before was...

...she tell's me that she was shocked that I told her norma what will I do...and she change the norma number...and I answer that it is really interesting that you and our colleguiness were not shocked whan I work of work 6 people just than whan I said that from now I work just for 2 people...she did not know to answer:)))...

...and I tell her that I can';t be a same the other colleguines who work's with health education becouse I work on to languaqges it is more money because harder job and I have to do everithing 2 times, I have always 2 brains and to work's with it...and my norma is for 2 people and I can not understand any shock with it:)))...

...so it wan't be easy so:))) but it will be normal not as before whan I became again and again sick because I can't do that much as I was...

...and now it becames a new thing in the work new word's real and normal what can we do:)))...I would like to have a time for praying for God  and for you...to writre to pray to have a pacience and to help and work for you...I'm so tired it is not easy thing to fight with her from Friday still now, but God was with me and I need him to know handle my new situation that I have a lovely and sweety m_ _ _ _ ed man in my life...

...why don't you tell me, that with your borning from your start you have on your heart this task from the life...it was very hard that I all time feel it but allways think that you have a LOVER and still the big cake action I did not belive that it is not true...

...I always think that you lie because never ever tell me evrithing...what is happening if I felt itt all belive me...just don't understand tham at all...I'm an avanturist and writer for me dosen't matter are you wear a ring or no...for me is interesting to work for you and to understand you free wan't...and to take care abouth your free wan't...but I understand all your situation, I lose my life us you and I'm doing what is really hard for me showing everyday life people the God, who did not care abouth it...as my Boss and colleguiness...so hello my married man you can do for what you born...

...now called me my sweety old friend from Subotica, whom I knew from Subotica curch that she need my help...I willl sleep today's on Subotica now and help her...if I don't write I don't have internet on saturday I work I will write you  some sentences...on sunday I will get back again home...take care going for packing

...and talk abouth you:)))...I said like you very much:))) you are very good discusser and thinker and The hair cutter told me abouth hair cutting Eu's;))) and a painter in Eu very good on thinking and I told for me you are the BEST:)))and the hair cutter told me that painter have a little girl and I told that you got was marridge on the date and It was gorgeous I can tell it without showing thing's in my heart...at the end you best know  me than I myself...you told that  I can do it at the end you will be right:)))take care I going to get a bath and sleep:)))

...if the music was little bit sad tomorow I'm well...you are now a husband and have a family and my work is to help you to hold and work for tham...to be powerfull and hard to do all of your things and I will pray for alll your's forever life...it is an ask theres free want, but but I would like to do everything to thay understand how good thing is what God make for use in new WORLD...

...my ssssssssss was with mountin walker's from town where I work in mountin's, thay walk a lot and two day's thay skiing in a little ski way...today she were come back and I make her favorite pogácsa:))) an transilvanian dirhty way...a learn it from a transilvanina dirty psihologist, who live in dirty land and write down transilvanian recept's for use...it is reform meal there is no egg and no a lot of butter...and ssssssssssss love it so much and I made somehing what really wait her home:)))...

...you knew that I ask you to make a comunicating contact with a dirthy He from a villige where my mom live and born, near to the border and whom I recognize after that incident in the curch...He is hiperactive as my boss and it was so hard with him and on friday I tell him because did not listen me just talk talk talk calll talk or write don't read write don't read...so on friday I make cut and tell him, that I do not need a help, I have GOD's help with me what ever happens, my God I build my routins and this kind of life and the prayer to my God I can hamdle my life soooooo I don't need his help  because he wan't to be Hero on my life and I just told an incident in my work wich is normal and he start to soilve it...so I cut and told him if he would like to communicate no calling more...he called me on mobil and cry and I call him back with fix and he b;a bla bla bla 2 an a half hours...I told him how to help himself he did not listen anything it cost me 2000  for it and and I don't help anything just bla bla to he became a Hero and he help what I do not need... the good thing is that it was Sunday and than it is only 2000 is half 1000:)))...so he makes me crazy with his helping than I don't need a help, and writing and don't listening me just bla bla bla bla bla and crazy me...so had cut and told him  everyday to messeges after 3 PM a write if he write back to 6 PM than I answer...and that is his quota if he do not wan't that with his free wan't he can go...and it is so OK, He cut his father because he do not have a pacinece for him...he don't wan't him to listen because he is boring...just take him eat and running from there, he can not live with him he wan to by a house to be alone...he is working to buy it...I don't care but a son who run from his fater and don't have a pacience for him is not a humanbeen whom I have to cry how sorry is his life...he has a mother who cooking and cleaning for him...and he do not wan't to live with her because he wan't his own life with sex freedom:)))...the world is big I'm not that PI PI who will working cleaning cooking sexing and killing herself there to be him good...

...I just wan't to help, I have a hipperactiveboss it is killingly but I new from hipperactive children that to be hiperactive is very hard thing, thay sleep only 4 5 huours and all thay just wwooooooooooooo wooooooooooooooooo woooooooooooooooooooo wooooooooooooooooooo wooooooooooooooo  wooooooooooo and never have a peace...I'm open to help,but I don't need a help and my help is one messege after 3 pm and answer if he wrote back before 6pm...and if it is not good the world is big soooooooooo...I don't need to crazy me an another hipperactive there is half day in my life a boss it is so enough for me...sooooooooooo I cut............as never know to cut before YOU and he second day don't call me and wait my 3 pm and write and I get back answer...and silence:)))

...he is a satyr not wrong one but that is...I think he got craziing for me but he will survive he born on 1976 and lived with woman's who are older than he and have big son the other one doughter...who have a son dropped him out...who have a daughter got to start paraziting and he droped her out and now working because don't have sex and have more energy:)))...and running to find a new housewife on this runing God tell's me to my inner man to go on his way...

...and I have to tell that I thank you to got me chanse to communicate with him, because his kaotic wooooooooooooo wooooooooooooooo life drops me out and I realized that I need good routins to build for surviveing it makes me strong to knew to be find myself in your new life...and trough his masseages I realized that you are a writer to, that was we are so good knew to understand each other...so this thing help's me to find you in new life...and was really from God to help us...it is good to follow inner man...if look's like sometimes that is crazy...

...so I start to build new routins and can handle the thing's and for long long time I'm tired from 7x-es I do it so much time:)))...never ever do this many times still before Y...apolagize and relly need a rest from it:)))take care

first to 2:56 minute's;)))

,,,beautifulll...

It's start's a long winter now for us,

it will be long and could to scared us, 

take sweet warm our in your heart,

and give me shine of your eyes

Take care to build me a good routins,,

don't push yourself a scare to block brain,

push our fire to a candle light,

we need to see candleling all the time

ref

don'

t wait for could and grey and darkly hardly day's,

don't wait but take care,

build for me hard and powered save-ly good routins,

you are the writer to be born ....

We need a pacience and silence,

the winter comes and want a long to be.

Our dreams will slowly grows and spring will

done for world, and it needs could winter.

don

't wait for could and grey and darkly hardly day's,

don't wait but take care,

it;s good to see your hard and powerd new routins,

and a Writer from you comes on spring to be born...

...you always tell me the truth, sometimes not on that way how I think I would like, but always and I like it...in the work is very hard I handle it, but it is hard and in new moon day or before it is always an attack...so it was an attack before a day of new moon and we got a profesional meeting as a gift for a new moon...

...I will survive but it was a friday, and on Friday I go out from work 5 minutes earlier because like this I have a silence freedoom and I do not want to go out together with coleguines who do not like me and it's ok we do not choose each other...

...so I got out and I survive and I need something special, because I pray a lot to survive and GOD help's me with strong hands and I was happy abouth it and I need something...

...so You choose metod with me, that you tell's me everithing whan you see that I'm hard and open to get it...and I think it's is a good metod for me...but I think that my metod with you was a succesfull because I openly said you everithing abouth me and never wait with that...because I work for your and your's and you need to know everything wich with me happend...You are the king and you open me the door of secret land, you give me a signature of beeing secret, you give me a writer work sooooooooooooo You need to know evrything whan it happen's if sometimes I think that it's no time for that...

...so I fly out from a work happily that I'm survive...and I need something special...I go to see for sister the time of evning train and than I go to glasses shop to ask how much are bipolar glass that I can wear all time...I do not want to buy just to ask it...

...and I go to buy a little mick tick to my wardrob in work to fix one desk to take there my bag...so I go and for a million time I cross in front of secret cake shop what is interesting for me I don't no whay for me...it is dark and silences and no people in it and I never ever see it before you...so I stop and look it tham a cakes...and I tell you that one day I will be eat here secret cake to know are your's realli excellent and you said OK...so I got in and I ask a white cake and Daddy's favorite...and thay where sooooooooooo GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD...yes your's are EXVELLENT that is whay my friend's husbant wan't only your's he like's specialities...and your's are really EXCELLENT SPECIALISITES...but theres were sooooo goooooood...

...and I got in ask for to cake's and than I realized, that maybe I do not have a money for it...and apolagize and the kelner:)))...so the young HE worker;))) from the secret nation, openly and coldly as it is evryday thing say's me don't woory you can eat if you do not have now money...and I feel at home at once...I like secret feeling...I do not look at him so much, I do not see his eyes...and he do not know to cach me as you for first my buying...but I feel at home and it was gorgeous to feel it...to feel  YOU on my secret home...

...I sit eat and wach the sreet as at you, the chair's are so little not comfortable...but it was good to be on a place wich is similar than my home:)))..I eat and thank's it before that drink my calcium to not lose a breath...

whan I sit...comes in friend's of the worker owner and thay do not have a braveness as you to spoke secret language...thay were shocked that somebody eat's there and whan I got out thay sit as it is normal, but on air it feel's that that is not normal, and thay don't know that I know:)))...so I turn around thay see my back and I  tell :

SO I COME HERE TO MAKE A TEST...and the cakes are soooooo gooooooooooood...and get out...

I feel my best loved friend in all of it...and it was a day whan I again make a big step to BELEIVE ON YOU...first step was whan You come to my house...and we get in and you don't come and whan I look back see you how you fight with yourself and you do not have a power to ask me can you come in with your shoes...than I realize, that you relly never ever had a lover before...and you really do not lie me...

...and now was the second step that you are really brave to fight, because whan I get in your cake shop you new that comes a moment, and you did not wan't to push it out...but you were deeply look at my eyes and openly says see you again and this boy is deppressed and using something drog or he is deeply in alcohol...so you really not deeply in alcohol because if you will be you can't be so open and so clear and lovely black black eyes...I beleive you, but I would like you to fight with alcohol...dont ask me way just please fight...

...and I ask you us your friend, to give me an OK to get here sometimes...it is so good to feel secretland and thay have 4 kind of herba tee I can drink tee and feel you...because you were working and learning to be a writer far away from here and sometimes I like to feel secretland where you take me...it wan't to be a lot of time in a year, but sometimes I need it really...please  thank you...

ps. and I see that you do not lost your identity it is very important to became a good writer from you...this worker boy do not know what is He, and He got loose yourself I'm said abouth it...He start to lose His secret I and he start to become without a taste...I like your secret beeing that is the best thing on the world, takecare abouth it please...and I have  7x today to...I don't mind...but now I like to feel and see that I can stop...not forever just a period...going to eat:)))